In between putting on deodorant

* sorry for the gross title. i just bought deodorant yesterday, hence the title. im really bad at title authoring.

been watching a couple of movies weekly and catching up on my american idol viewing. i dont watch every episode or performance because i have no time though. i just pick whatever i hear is talked about. also im quite anxious for this upcoming interview. it's not really next month. it's at the end of this month! i made that mistake, ugh. so yeah, im just trying to stay positive and all. ive been active in my other blogs, which sucks if i take a look at how this blog is doing, but basically i post stuff about myself here, while i just write whatever on livejournal, then post short entries in filipino on wordpress. ive been contemplating about "hiding" again, like lessening my presence on the web. ive already done that with youtube since i stopped vlogging. oh those were the days... i dont know if i actually regret stopping or even starting but i dont feel like vlogging anymore, at least not at this moment. ive lost my drive for that for a couple of reasons that im not going to discuss anymore and im done with thinking what others have to say about my work and indirectly seeking for approval. no, really, if i do a video, ill do it my way without anyone's help. and if it sucks, it because i wanted it to suck and that means i did my job well. and those singing videos ive done are just what i call "pity uploads" because i pity my account not getting updated for so long. anyway i wish i could watch push and street fighter. and also finish arrested development season 1 so i could start on heroes season 2, which i think isn't as good as the first season because hiro goes to old japan (the obvious route). i also want to catch up on watching america's next top model because i want to see creepy-chan in action, and also gossip girl because i have not finished season 2. i haven't eaten a lot of chicken these days which is good i suppose because im tired of eating fried or roasted chicken.
i just bought a carton of soy milk with green tea in it. thought it would be bitter since it looks sickly green, but surprisingly it wasn't. it was the kind of gross i dig, actually. no one else in the house drinks soy milk so im pretty sure there will be something left for me to drink when i come home... unlike minute maid. god i think i always buy the rogue ninja minute maid. it mysteriously drinks its own juice! i havent even opened the new one i just bought and i open the fridge the next day and see it's part empty. what is up with that!

ive been thinking of setting some of my stuff on fire. i just dont know where to do it because our backyard is now vegetated and if i start a fire near our house, the smoke will just irritate the hell out of us. ive seen a lot of episodes lately of people cleaning shit off their house, even pictures of rooms being decluttered, so i want to do it too. im surprised that im quite good at letting go. just last night, ive deleted so many things from my computer because they hold no use for me anymore when i couldnt do otherwise in the past. as much as an external hard drive is appealing because you might not need to delete a single file anymore, i say that's too much for me and i just have to be content and particular with what i like to keep since everything else is available online.

i want to be hugged when i least expect it.

my dear junghwa is busy with her drama. im so proud of her. she is underrated but at least she gets work and is still well-known in the industry. i dont know how id behave if i have the chance to meet her. it would be insane, i guess. i dont know how we'd talk to each other because im not sure if she can speak english well enough for us to have a conversation. and i cant speak korean. and i only know a few japanese. T_T i think she's the only person who turns me into a decent fan. i dont really care much about her personal life, or rather, i dont know much about her personal life, which is healthy i think because i want to know her as an artist. and im just so glad she stays humble and god-fearing when she has achieved so much in her lifetime. i dont think it's love i have for her because that's too much. i dont think if i become a guy, id want to have her as my girlfriend (ummm but before anything else, ewww?). it's respect, i guess.

i want to see snow!! i know it's not exciting for other people who are living up north, but you have no idea how hot it can get in the tropics!

i dream of having my own sewing machine!!! lol. then i'd just put it at the corner of my room to collect dust. hahahaha. i dont know... i used to be in the sewing club in grade 3 (hahahaha) and i was amazed at the blanket stitch. now i dont know how to do it, dammit. well the thought of being able to sew your own clothes and accessories is very inspiring. my sister might just want to do that for a living when she grows up, im not quite sure, maybe it's just designing clothes, but i hope she pursues whatever it is. it would be very interesting.

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