Incoherence: it's delicious.

will go incoherent (as always), get ready, let's go people!!! 

i miss my old habits of reading books, writing in a journal with a pen, and listening to fm radio. my knowledge in contemporary music is now a shame and i look like a book hoarder when im not just because i haven't kept up with my so-called reading list and i buy books every now and then. ugh ugh ugh. i feel like there's too much noise in my life. the internet has proven me that time and again. i guess it's that period again when i need to cut back on things i read and comment on. *i'm deleting some blogs from my feed reader as i write! aaaaand i've unfollowed a couple of people on twitter already. those should probably do it.

ive always wondered why we call a blackout a "brownout" in the philippines. i think this is how it goes. a brownout is "blackout" defined in the dictionary but it covers a small region, but a REAL blackout is nationwide, totally dark everywhere! weird, 'no? we've had a brownout for 2 nights, not exactly consecutive but just as annoying if it were consecutive, you know, and we had to report it to meralco every now and then. it's because of the rain, dammnit.

i lost my cinemax pen. iz disappointed. hbo gave it to me when i joined their video contest a while back. it should be somewhere. it SHOULD be. (of course, or else it would mean it just vanished into dust!) :( now i'll just have to resort to the pen/s i got from the arcade.

 i've been really bad with taking care of myself. all i do is work, eat, sleep and rest. no exercise! i recently got tagged in a photo uploaded on facebook and it was an old college photo when i was still in the varsity. my god, my old face, my old arms and legs! i didn't think there would ever come a time when i'd think about weight this much. those were the days that i ate whatever i wanted and didn't have to care because my metabolism was very fast. the only hope i have right now is, if i looked like that back in the day, what is the reason i can't look like that now? you know what i'm saying? like, damn, i can still go back to my old weight, or even go beyond that. if i could let go, then i could hold back too. i don't think i'd ever resort to any eating disorder because that's lame and besides food is nom nom nom love. but i need to take this seriously if i want it to happen. the problem is, when i was in the varsity, i wasn't all serious. losing weight was not my primary reason that i was in the team. i LOVE the game. it was the commitment i made to the sport that made things serious, a good kind of serious. and the fact that i'm on my own now, i think it's sad...

before i even depress myself a bit more, let me just say that i finally have a car. it's kinda like a family car, but it's registered under my name. so i guess that makes it mine. but i mean, george foreman has his signature on a grill so does that me he owns all the grills sold to customers, eh??? anyway, since i'm making myself not clear again, well it's been a long time since we've had an ac in there that works like a real air-conditioner, and not a fan that sprays water. plus everything is so smooth and nice to touch, my stepmother teased me to sleep in the car then. haha. too bad it rained on the first day we picked it up from the car dealer. i still can't drive, omg ikr??? but that's because ~things~ just happen and i've become really busy. i don't want to be "a virgin who can't drive" forever, you know...

ttyl redirecting my life with unicorns.

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