Interview

im pretty much worried these days. i have an interview next month and it's making me lose my mind. something is at stake, and if i fail this one, i dont know, i guess my self-esteem would just shrink and id like to become a hermit afterwards. have i prepared enough? i think ill never be prepared enough for anything, not even for things that i think i know inside and out. there's always a probability of shit happening and that's what makes me antsy. stuff are smooth sailing though and at least that gives me a bit of assurance that it's going to be fine.

i remember going to an audition. i think ive written about it here but whatevs. it was a part for a college play. i had no idea what to do in a casting call, really, so i was nervous (but in a good way) since i was very curious about what was about to happen. i stepped inside the audition room and i had to read lines and shit, had to think of my blocking and what persona i want to portray, and yes, exactly, i wasn't prepared. i was freakin everywhere on stage. i looked crazy in front of the casting director and crew and the only relief i got was when they chuckled once or twice during my audition. i think they liked my insanity, but it wasn't what they were looking for. i was bummed, not because i didn't get any part in the play, but because i knew that i could have done better the moment i stepped outside the room. i hate that feeling!

in high school, i went to 2 auditions for 2 choirs, and yea, i didn't get accepted either. it all comes down to being inexperienced and not ready. and i guess they didn't see commitment in my eyes. i don't even understand why i went to those auditions. what did i want to prove to myself? that i can sing? what for? and so what if i can't?

my online friend just went to a big brother audition and she didn't get through. ive asked her beforehand about her intentions, why she wanted to be there. she said she wanted to prove something, i wont elaborate anymore, but being a search engine enthusiast myself, i told her of the horrors of being famous especially online:

• if i hate you, i will find shit about you
• if i hate you, i will find shit about you
• if i hate you, i will find shit about you
• if the internet hates you, people will laugh at you
• if the internet hates you, people will hack you
• if the internet hates you, people will leak your personal information
• if the internet hates you, people will make memes out of you
• if your future employer searches the internet, they will find shit about you
• if your future employer searches the internet, they will find porn about you (rule 32, my friend)
• if your future employer searches the internet, they will find facts and lies about you but they won't know the difference
• et cetera, et cetera
  

lol i did scare her unintentionally, but she still went to the audition.

anyway, this entry isn't about my creepiness (haha) but about interviews and auditions so yeah, i hope things work out for me on this one. that's all.

free the gnomes!

tags: interview  audition  casting  call  play  choir  big  brother  internet  

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