Save the old maid. Save the world. Haha!

I just finished War of Money! Hooray!! It was good while it lasted and I didn't expect the ending to be like that, to be quite honest. I really liked the proposal scene. It was so simple. A dinner date. Guy asks girl if he can look at her hand. Girl shows her hand. Guy pulls out a marker from his suit. Guy holds her hand. Guy draws a ring on her finger. Guy pops the question. LOL. I don't know if it's because of my age, but I really don't get why I would like to have a ring for engagement. I don't get it. I'm actually not into jewelry at all. Well, I have some but mostly they were given to me or passed on from my mother. (Speaking of my mother, her ~birthday~ was on the 15th and I almost forgot. I'm sucha ~good~ daughter.) Maybe when I grow older, I'd see the value in jewelry.

I also watched 6 episodes of Heroes in one go. I ate lunch in front of the tv. Haha. That was why I fell asleep right after because I ate too much.  You know what, I just found out why people kept saying "Save the cheerleader. Save the world" jokes. I get it now. Seriously, I just know there's a cheerleader in the series but I didn't understand why she needs to be saved. Like, why?! And all these jokes like, "Save the dolphin. Save the world," keep popping up whenever the discussion is on Hayden Panettierre.

I'm reading A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. My sister bought a copy before and I saw the book on her desk. I asked her if I can read it and she said yes. Honestly though, I still have lots of books to read. I have not finished reading 3 of the books I bought. It's like, I can't concentrate on one book these days. It's evil!! Anyhoo, I'm on page 103 now and as cheesy as it sounds, a line from the book struck me. One of the main characters by the way is a girl named Jamie (HA!) and she said "The Lord seems to have a plan that I just don't know about yet."

Have you paid attention to one of the songs from the A Walk To Remember soundtrack? You know, Only Hope?? You think it's romantic? Read the lyrics again. It's actually one of those songs that can be sang to God. "When it seems like my dreams are so far, sing to me all the plans that you have for me over again."

Lately, I have not written much here because there are things that make me think to no end. Even in my dreams, I have no escape. Also at this point, I really don't know what I really want to do for the rest of my life. One of my friends already had mapped out her plans and I'm like, you're so lucky you really know what to do. And she told me that I should think otherwise because she feels like she's rushing herself. I can't believe what she just told me. I would have understood it if she said, my life is organized because I have all these plans. But rushed?!

Sometimes I think to myself that I might become an old maid. Seriously. I don't know what to do with my life, and I'm not even sure which direction I want to take. Definitely a guy wouldn't want to be in such a mess that is called Jamie. I don't think I'm ready for that commitment just because I want to be ~almost there~ when I meet this guy, whoever he is. And when I meet him, I will be ~there~ because we're together and because he completes the picture. I'm not even talking about a jigsaw puzzle, like there's a missing piece of a specific shape and only that piece will fill in the void. If anything, my puzzle is an abstract. It just is because I don't even know what this puzzle is all about. But this person who will come in, he'll just fit in and it will be beautiful.

Wow, I just rambled there.

I've really been thinking about it. What does God have for me? And please, I really don't want to be an old maid! I'd like to have evil spawns!!!

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