So you probably might not see my blog for a few days, I think.

I'm a procrastinating idiot. Argh. I hope it works out fine. I don't really want to talk about it until it's settled..

Anyhoo, I have to point out another idiotic thing I did a few months back. So I didn't write here about this online singing contest I joined in. Well, I made an audition clip for the contest and when the first round was almost near I ACTUALLY RECEIVED AN EMAIL FROM THE CONTEST PEOPLE SAYING I WAS A FINALIST. OK, so I did say I was not that interested in the contest. It was just something I tried out, you know, if I could push my luck or something. I wasn't serious about it at all. The thing was I couldn't even watch the airing of that episode because I was busy at work and the time slot was a bit late for me. So you can say I took the contest for granted. My friend, who works for the contest, asked me before about me watching the episode and I said I wasn't able to. She didn't say much but she said there was a replay for the first episode and I was like, I still don't think I can watch it.

So I came around the website for the online singing contest and it was on its third episode already. I was like, maybe I should check out a bit of this episode. And dayum, the finalists' videos were each shown then there was a judge who would give constructive criticism about the singing and stuff. I was like, what! So it meant that since I was one of the first few finalists of this show, then my video was up online and the judge gave feedback about my performance and people were watching the whole damn thing? GEEEEEZ.

I know, I know, I should have expected something like that since I was briefed beforehand by my friend about what the show was about, but it just feels odd. It just hit me this time that it did happen, without my ~knowledge~, without me seeing what just happened. I don't know where the website keeps its archives, but I'm trying to get a copy of the first episode of the show from my friend just to see it for myself.

Or maybe I'm just hallucinating, like I just made everything up. Like I didn't really become a finalist for this show to begin with. I do remember receiving an email from the contest organizers, but for some dumbf*ck reason, I deleted the email. WHAT. AN. IDIOT. Add to the fact that the first episode was up months ago. AM I SUPER SLOW OR WHAT? DELAYED REACTION, HUH.

Another idiotic/fangirlish thing is that I don't have the email from the contest organizers but I have this entire folder in my inbox for message alerts that I got a message from--- WHAT THE HELL. I didn't know at first if I should punch myself in the face for the way I set ~priorities~ or if I should punch myself in the face for being sentimental. Instead I ended up giving out a loud "AWWWWWW..." For chrissake! Speaking of which, I'm quite an "electronic" pack rat, or e-pack rat (rriiight...) and I keep a lot of stuff online, like those message alerts that are not even helpful now because they're just effin message alerts with no summary whatsoever of the messages I received. A BIG FAT WHY!!!

See? I'm an idiot.

And you know who you are. You are aware that I'm an idiot. OK maybe half an idiot because I can pick up your clues and references, but what the flying f*ck do you want me to do with them? I already did my part. Have you done yours? Oh perhaps I see how it is. We're both idiots.

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